Lighters

I was excited to get back to a routine lifestyle, but now I'm not so. I hope that it's not coming back because if it does, it's definitely gonna be worse than the previous times. Oh, shit.

-This ones for you and me.

Rumor has it

I don't know is it coincidence or what but recently, whenever I'm feeling low as f, you're there.



-But baby, is that really what you want?

Lacquer

A friend is nothing but a known enemy.

-Kurt Cobain

And he's back again

At this age, the matured decision is to know how to consider what I need instead of what I want.

But easier said than done. I no longer know what I need. I seek for temporary relief. Ehh, screw it. Just have fun.

Trust

I just finished the movie. I wanted to stop when the guy appeared. It was sick and disturbing. But the ending, for the first time in so many movies I've watched, I cried hahaha. It reminded me of the January incident. What the dad told his daughter, it struck me. The whole movie. Eventhough the main plot wasn't about suicide. It was just the ending part where she decided to end her life.

No one in my family talks about it and I myself am avoiding it that I soon forgot about it. Until that day i was packing my room and decided to read my old journal and the day my sis sent me a message.

Now I know it's been extremely hard on them. My parents. My sister. My brother, sis in law, cousins and uncle I guess? I know it's anal to say this but I could just think of my parents and sister. Well, sister mainly hahaha.

I mean, God. What were they actually thinking when it happened? It never struck me until Clive Owen talked to his daughter. It feels extremely horrible. The worry I put in them. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling now.

I just wanna apologise.

Puddle of Mud

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Fucked up.

And we always end them with a smile.

Fuck it.

Rootless Tree

So fuck you,

And all we've been through

I said leave it.

It's nothing to you;

And if you hate me,

Then hate me so good that you can let me out

Let me out of this hell when you're around.