Cinnamon Twirls.

I was in the kitchen and it was my sister's turn to bake. She suddenly told me about a friend who was devastated when his ex cheated on him. I then turned on Jeff Buckley's video and laughed to myself, thinking: I was devastated when I found out Jeff died when I was only five, so it meant that I would never be able to watch him perform live ever again. Hahaha. It's really such a waste. But now I'm really supporting Quietdrive! :D And then through them, I found out about this band called North Of The City. They're quite similar, I like them both but my preference is still Quietdrive! :D That day I was pretty excited when someone named Ace Hendrix added me on facebook. I decided to click and see who he is first before approving but then I saw a little note from him and it wrote: Hi, my friends and I just formed a band and we're from Stroudsburg. And something more. 8D I was really excited. Hahahaha. :D They were really nice because they took the effort to reply our posts and feedbacks. :D I somehow hope they don't get too famous. If not, they're going to end up like most of the other commercialised bands.

Actually until now, every once in awhile I'll get mixed emotions about my dad. He used to be this healthy man that's eating healthily and giving others advices on how to live a healthy lifestyle and now, this. I sometimes wonder if I myself couldn't accept his sickness, what does he feels or thinks actually. The most difficult part for me, is that he's always acting strong in front of us. People may think, in that way, it'll be easier to stay strong but to me, that is what bothers me the most. Until this very second, he never complains of any pain. My six foot tall broadband. I don't know what to say. Sometimes I just want to shake him and say: Just tell me if it's painful! But still, it's his body and mindset, I know I can't do that. Hmm. I really do wish to turn back time before all these happened. I really feel like going on a holiday, just enjoy myself with the money I saved but never seems like a right time anytime soon. 

Dad, get well soon. 

:)