Just the smile on your face lets me know everything will be alright.

"How many hours have we talked away?
How many nights have we been there for each other;
trying to figure out the hows and whys of life?

How often have we laughed so hard over things that weren't really funny or celebrated victories that only sister could understand the real importance of?

Do you know how many times I've looked at you and admired you and thought to myself, "I'm so glad she's my sister"?
More times than you'll ever know.

Love you lots"


She's more than a sister to me and he's more than a sister's friend to me. This will be a long post. :)


I was eleven, at my aunty's wake, that I found out my parents was supposed to give me up for adoption, to my uncle in Singapore. But then his wife didn't want to take care of me, as a toddler, so the adoption 'delayed'. My sister then recalled the incident to me. My mum was carrying me, with my sister by her side going to Singapore by train. My mum told my sister: "Later Mei Mei won't be coming back with us and don't ask anything in front of KaoFoo later." and she remembered that she kept asking my mum why and probably like the movies, my mum would reply: "I'll tell you when it's time for you to understand." Hahahaha, imagination ran wild. -________- I didn't know what my mum replied actually. But when it didn't happen, my sister said she was very happy to see me coming back with them. :') I can't believe I actually nearly lost the chance to grow up with her until this very day! But when we were young, I was an asshole and we argued every single day. I thought we hated each other. Maybe we did, at that time. Hahaha.


This reminds me of the post in my very first blog, I forgot what was the link. Hahaha. I changed my blog's url about five times. HEHEHEHAHAHA. My parents couldn't stand us, we couldn't stand at the sight of each other as well. But I didn't know what happened when I was in Primary Five. My sister was in Secondary Three. We suddenly decided to stop fighting and would only pretend to quarrel to piss my dad off and when he's really pissed, we'll laugh and she'll say: "Nolaaaa! We're just pretending to quarrel." I still remember we were in the car at that time, with her leaning against the car's left door. :) After that, we HARDLY fight. Maybe a few unnecessary sarcasm shots at one another, but after half an hour or so, then we're cool. :) But of course sometimes there are longer 'wars'. Hahahaha tipu ah if i say never. Things were a lot better then and especially after I entered Sec 1 and she was in Sec 5. You know how majority of teenagers hate to be in the same school as their siblings/relatives, but I actually love it! She'd bring home confiscated chocolates and movies HAHAHAHA! Everyday, she drives us to school, parks under the shade and the best is our trip home! We'll always bet at the duration she needs to get home from school and she'll be speeding all the way in her favourite red Kancil with The Used CD smashing the speakers and us screaming at the top of our lungs, singing along with the lyrics. It was AWESOME! :) Then in the evening while my parents are having tuition, she'll be holding the small red bucket filled with Dettol and a torn cloth to sanitise the car. Hahahaha :)


She then left for KL and every single holiday, I'd stay with her in her hostel. I always get to sneak in without fail. You know how others giggle nervously when they pass the guard, thinking they're funny and cool for committing a crime but instead, they're actually just creating suspicion. Bodoh. We just play it cool and wear the confident muka selamba face. But every stay, I'm always ready for her PMS season and when it comes, it comes EVIL. -___________- Her PMS is really really really different from any other woman living on earth! I promised myself to never step back into the hostel and stay with her but every single time she asks, I'll stay. And then face her psycho PMS. -_________- Hahahaha -_______________-


But really, she's not the typical sister everyone has. During my UPSR, instead of motivating me at home, she'll be busy teaching me all the cheats for the Sims game. HAHAHA! Yes, I'll never let you forget this! Hahahaha :p Then when I was 16, she made me make full use of our nearly identical face to use her ID to sneak into clubs. HAHAHAHAHAWTF!


Like what she wrote to me (above), we enjoy each other's company a lot because it's damn fcuked up for the public as we enjoy making fun of everyone. -___________- For example, the girl is damn hot, but we'd still make fun of some imaginary things we create to make the girl actually not so hot. Sometimes we'd say: "Too bad lah, she has a nice body but a shitty wtf face and she thinks she's damn hot, which directly throws her in the buffaloes category." Hahahaha but without her, I don't even have the mood to look at anyone because there's no one to make fun of them with me. And it's not even because we're perfect that's why we are able to confidently make fun of them, but it's actually because we know that no one is perfect, that's why we do it! HAHAHAHA and the things that we make fun of are usually the flaws we have ourselves, so we don't mind. HAHAHA FEL. Our favourite role play is for my sister to put on her specs and act blind with me guiding her the way. HAHAHA and we hate Public Display of Affection so much that we'll imitate what the mushy things that couples do, right in front of them. HAHAHAHA FTL. AND THE WORST, she enjoys going around, pulling strangers'hair and make them think it's ghost and go around kids, asking them random questions that aren't meant for their ears. HAHAHAHAHAWTF. Recently, she asked a girl that was holding her father's hands: "Is he your boyfriend?" and she told me that girl's an idiot because she didn't answer her question.

-_____________-

She knows me best, inside and out. She understands every single reason for every single action of mine. Whenever I'm labelled the 'asshole' tag, she and Victor will be the one who'll say: "HAHAHA I'm so proud of you." Becauseeeee, only she and Victor will understand that every so-called 'asshole' action of ours are just our own ways of protecting ourselves! But soon, I got used to the frequent misunderstandings by others and I just came to the point where I think why should I bother explaining myself, it's not like they're gonna change their perception towards and what's even more logical, these backstabbers mean NOTHING to me. I even care for Spongebob and Patrick more than I care about these pricks.

And there's She's The Man. Our all time favourite movie. I swear we've watched it for 50 times! There were even times where we repeat the movie for three times and we still laugh at the same spots every single time! HAHAHA :) The other time in my previous college, I was watching it alone and I laughed and commented to the air. I waited for a familiar response but there wasn't any. I turned around and my other two roommates were staring at me like an idiot. :'( Then I stopped watching and called my sister instead because I missed her so damn much! But weirdly, everytime she calls, I'll be in a pissed off mood because I hate phone calls! HAHAHA! But still she keeps calling and asks the same question: "Qi, you don't sound so pissed can or not?"HAHAHA :')

Since three years back, Aunty Fay will ALWAYS ask the both of us: "You two ah! Can keep talking and talking and talking! Morning talk till night! If your sleep late, then continue talking somemore! Your got so much things to talk about ah?! Really talk non stop ah you two!" And the most recent one that Aunty Fay scolded my sister after I came here because she kept on telling Aunty Fay she misses me: "Eh you shattap can or not? You better just go and get married with QiQi!" HAHAHAHAHAHA mmm, Aunty Fay, we actually planned to marry each other. HAHAHAHAHAWTF but true. And I don't mind. :)

Our latest favourite stupid quotes: Tell me 'bout it, baby LeBlanc~ in a stupid fail cheesy British accent.

Ahh, my Homer keeps telling me to sleep and typing in the dark is bad for my eyesight. So Victorado Man Baba, the next long post will be yours! :)

Bon Nuit.

Man Baba, Sailor Gaga.

Love and Hugs.

:)

:*

Now that it's all said and done.

Sawadeekappppp!

Even his face says: 

"Sawadeekapp Katrina! Come and eat!"

Hahahaha my group mates are planning to go on a trip to Bangkok this coming September, hopefully everything goes well. And I'm hoping to go to any part of Thailand with my long time harneh, SHEESHEE on December because that will be the only time we have similar holidays. 

Study smart, play HARD.

Le A for Bioscience.

HEHEHEHAHAHA

HELL YEAAAA!

Happy 6th Anniversary!

For my French written exam, I decided to do an interview on Daniel Wu. Yesterday I was cracking my head, trying hard not to use the power of Google Translate because it actually sucks up big time. I was trying to combine all the words I've learnt in the previous two lessons. I wasted quite a lot of time editing the dialogue because I kept running out of the question and instead, it sounded like Daniel Wu is flirting with me and in the interview, he even asked me to dance with him. T__________T I wish it comes true. SNIFFS. But finally, I managed to keep myself sane and finish up the interview. Today I decided to finish as much homework as possible so that I can have fun when my parents come tomorrow for the weekends. SO I was googling for the ALMIGHTY Daniel Wu's pictures to print it out. As expected, it was a tough time choosing the best because most of them, I was carried away by his good physique. SNIFFS. At last, I chose this one:

Printing this itself gave me muscle spasm and I was grinning like a pervert. Then suddenly I remembered. I'm in love with Daniel Wu since I was 13! I remember when I was 14, I vandalised my school table with his name. The whole table was filled with his name and his sexy quote that has never failed to make my knees go wobbly: "50-50. Switch Bitch!" :OOOOOOOO MANN I LOVE HIM! But don't worry, I'm not a crazy stalker, but I'm just very extra loyal to him. MUAHAHAHAHA. My mum keeps telling me he divorced Lisa S. -___________________- How come I never heard about this shocking news? She must've mixed them up with another couple. -______________-

Je t'aime,

Daniel Wu.

HEHEHE

:P

Don't be a drag, just be a Queen.

For French today, we had to write a short essay about our family. Mistakes are still unknown.

J'ai une grande famille: mes parents, mes frères aînés, ma sœur aînée et moi. Mon père s'appelle *Dad's name: confidential MUAHAHA*. Il a 62 ans. Il ne travaille pas. Ma mère s'appelle *Mum's name: SULIT! HAHAHA*. Elle a 56 ans. Elle travaille à Canossian Convent Primary School. Mon frère aîné, Kelvin, est 30 ans. Il est tattoo artisté à Kuala Lumpur. Mon frère cadette, Victor, est 22 ans. Il est photographe à Perth. Ma sœur aînée s'appelle Karen et elle a 23 ans. Elle est étudiante à *Name of shit college must be confidential*. J'aime ma famille. =)

____________________________________________________

I have a big family: my parents, my elder brothers, my elder sister and me. My dad's name is ___. He is 62 years old. He is not working. My mum's name is ___. She is 56 years old. She works in Canossian Convent Primary School. My elder brother, Kelvin, is 30 years old. He is a tattoo artist in Kuala Lumpur. My other elder brother, but the younger one, Victor, is 22 years old. He is a photographer in Perth. My elder sister's name is Karen and she is 23 years old. She's a student in ___. I love my family. =)

____________________________________________________

Victor, Karen and I have our own Sailor/Moon Family.

I love them and miss them very much.

We're always looked down upon, always the second guessing

BUT DO WE LOOK LIKE WE CARE?!

Never.

Because.

We are.

Yep, this is our Gaga Leader.

Victorado!

:D

SO PROUD OF HIM!

Man Baba.

Mama Sailor.

Chibi Rara.

Trash us but you're still gonna get nathengg!

We're paying with love tonight.

Dites-moi pourquoi,

la vie est belle.

Dites-moi pourquoi,

la vie est gaie.

Dites-moi, Mademoiselle.

Est-ce que;

Parce que,

Vous m'aimez?

________________________________

Translation:

Tell me why,

life is beautiful.

Tell me why,

life is happy.

Tell me, Young Lady.

Is it;

Because, you love me?

The sweetest song I've ever heard.

Awwww

:)

IF IF IF one day I get hit by a bazooka!
Dear future hubby,
Surprise me with this song on our wedding day.
HEHEHEHAHAHAHOHOHO!

From my lecturer, to my lecturer.

Bonjour!

Je me présente. Je m'appelle Katherine SOO. Je suis née à Hong Kong mais je suis Singapourienne.

Je suis professeur de français. Je travaille à Nanyang Polytechnic. J'aime mon travail.

J'ai 54 ans et je suis mariée. J'ai une petite famille: moi, mon mari et mes trois enfants. J'ai deux garçons et une fille. Ils sont étudiants. Mon mari est professeur d'informatique. J'aime ma famille.

This is our first assignment, which is to make sure we know how to type out the accent by retyping what our lecturer gave out to us and sending it back to her. So, I seem okay for now. Hahaha

We're sick like animals, we play pretend.

The interviewer was even more excited than me! She called to inform about them wanting to offer me the sponsorship but at the same time to tell me to allow some time grace for her to get done with her extra packed schedule for this week. Hahaha I can sense a really happy working environment in the future! I remember during the interview, the three superbly good and nice interviewers and I were hardly discussing about the whole nursing bursary issue. Instead, they were asking about my family background, my opinion on some random things, about my hometown, the Durian town, and about how is my uncle doing and all these topics! Just before I left only they started about the whole bond rules and regulation and that was about it! The middle interviewer, a man, even sulked at me and said, pointing towards the other two female interviewers beside him, saying: "These two durian lovers.." Hahahaha!

Oh by the way, the name of the hospital is St. Luke's Hospital. It's not an acute hospital but I love this one much more than the acute ones becauseeeeee their main care is on geriatrics! THIS IS REALLY LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE AND I'M FINALLY OFFICIALLY WORKING TOWARDS MY LONG TIME DREAM! :D

I've always wanted to be an awesome geriatric nurse to make sure these elderly patients get a well-deserved service! Seriously, I don't really like kids but to me, elderly are the most beautiful people alive! :)

Wait and see an awesome nurse bloom. HEHEHEHAHAHAHOHOHO :p

I wish I could still call you friend.

I wasn't concentrating and this happened.

Shitttttuuuuuuu.

;(

Heard you downstairs crying, feeling like such a mess.

I was deciding between fifty dollars or kick boxing. This month I'd already have to pay the fees, including uniform for $50 so yesssss, I decided to carry on because I'm really interested in it. Mid May I'm gonna have to pay another thirty for a camp which will lead me to a 'promotion' of a Yellow Belt. (:

And tomorrow, I'll be one of them.

The NYP Percussion Team.

:D

But booo, my account's getting empty and I don't know how to tell mum. I've already 'hinted' saying that I had to pay off alot of bills and the main necessary things and she also buat bodoh. Before leaving back here, she 'asked' "You still have money in your bank right?" and as I am, I hateee to ask or even mention about money so I just nodded my head. And she said "Good." which made me felt worse. :( Everyday tahan don't makan the whole day and waiting to go home to eat whatever's leftover from yesterday's dinner or whatever fast food that mum brought up earlier to save money. Pghhhhhh. Really so shittu. Eat also don't dare and will think quadruple times. T______________________________T Just hope that time passes faster so that it won't seem as if I used up alot in a short period of time. :( HAIHHHHHHHHH.

....

HAIHHHHHH.

You bleed just to know you're alive.

"All flowers in time, bend towards the Sun. I know you say that there's no one for you, but here is One."

This song makes me appreciate so many things that are happening right now. The exhaustion and frustration I felt in my previous college, it was terrible. I had no mood for my books, no mood for people. I was just trying make something new happen just to pass my time. I made mistakes, I leave certain people feeling unappreciated and used but at that point, I had no feeling of guilt or whatsoever. I felt lifeless there. Of course there are good moments because of my roommate since the first day of college, Na and then it was Mas the next semester. Three of us were always together. And of course good times comes with bad times. Then the most recent one, I got to get closer with Ajeed. These three classmates, I like them. It's already hell in there and I think without them three, it'll be worst. Terus masuk lubang hitam and even Doraemon can't help me. Na was my very first and best friend in college. We did drift apart at some point when we had different rooms, houses and shifts but she's the friend that I miss the most even till today because she's crazy. She's one who appears to be very cool and whatever-suka-hati-engkau but as I got to know her more, no one would ever imagine what she's facing. During hard times, we will ignore each other until one of us regains back our 'strength' only we'll ask each other "Na/Golek, you okay or not..?" because during our down moments, we memang pantang if people asks are we okay. HAHAHA :') 

Na, IF you ever happen to read my blog, I really miss you lah Hot Nurse! No one calls me Golek or Amoi here anymore and it's been awhile since I last heard someone says 'mehh' in such a celaka cheesy way. And no one has been such a failure being emo like you. HAHAHA I'll one day make a 'Kekasih Gelapku' video for you. HAHAHA I hope you won't find another Amoi as celaka as me. :( CHEEEESYYYYY. HAHAHA

Hahaha, I was supposed to write about appreciating life then and now but ended talking about my favourite roommate, bedmate and classmate back in my old college. :')

God bless you, Na. Be strong like you always are and.. stay awesome. 

Best regards,

Golek.

:)

Heels so high but you can't even have a good time.

Ahh, Finally. 

I can drool over Lee Minho without having to watch Boys Over Flowers for the next 83943025th time.

MUAHAHA.

-Personal Taste-

I don't care if he may have had a plastic surgery done or he looks gay.

I still adore him.

His height alone can make me poooooooofffaaaaaaaa.

Hehehe.

About.

To.

Step.

Into.

The.

World.

of.

Episode One.

MUAHAHA.

Au revoir!

When you gonna let me in?

What about breakfast at Tiffany's?

Salut!

Classes ended about four today and Emily and I decided that our blood is kinda busy today so we couldn't make it for the blood donation. Hahaha. We were walking towards the MRT Station and she suddenly pulled my hand and said: "Come, let's take the taxi. So hot lah weather!" HAHAHAHA but we still had to walk a distance to get a cab. ;(

Went to Nex, bought two movie tickets for Thor in Troi D and went to makan at The Ship. Emily insisted on paying for the movie tickets and the meal, claiming that it was because I paid for the taxi. The fare was only Seven. Hahaha glad she's not in the business industry. Hahaha but yaa, so nice of her.. The food was okay, we exchanged our childhood stories and we were laughing like Monsieur! Hahahaha she's really like a monkey during her high school days! Since we still had about an hour's time, we went to the Sky Garden to watch the kids play while continuing our talk. Hahaha, there was this one chubby little boy who's soooo cute! And you know lah, I don't like kids but he's really so adorable with his brother! Watching the kids run around and have fun with the public water playground is fun!

Thor was good. I quite like it because there's Natalie Portman. And Kat Denning! Hahaha I was expecting a really good looking guy and I didn't know it was Thor because he wasn't good looking to me but when I heard his father called him Thor, I was kinda disappointed. UNTIL HE LANDED ON EARTH AND WAS SEMI NAKED ABOUT TO WEAR THE BLUE TEE! OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! HIS ABS! :O SO HOT! HAHAHA! But I didn't like the ending. How can they end show with just a phrase of "She's still searching for you.."?! It was said that Thor couldn't go to the earth already and takkan she can just use a satellite or a space rocket to scan and see him?! ;( But still, I just like his body. Hahahaha he's still not good looking to me, except for a few parts only. Hehehe anddd Kat Denning is the one from House Bunny. She's so beautiful right? Hahaha

I think I can join the national marathon due to the everyday training of chasing after the bus. -____- Hahaha and I don't know why on the way back the song of "She's So High" keeps playing in my head. I miss my iPod aloooooooooot. :'(

This coming Sunday's Mother's Day. I feel like going home but then we hardly celebrate them and my first exam's on next next week. Shittuu. I slacked for two, three days. Luckily managed to force myself to start the kick again this afternoon. I really like the school's library. It really gives you the study mood. Hahaha there's so many types of library corner. There's the make any noise you want corner, no discussion corner, no discussion room, laugh all you want room and there's the individual cubicle study corner which is the one I love most because it's really very quiet and empty.

Pek Yee was rather grumpy today because of her late audition for the Foreign Bodies last night. And she slept almost through out the whole day! Hahaha. And I'm writing today's stories in an opposite direction. Hahaha

Au Revoir!

:)

When the flowers gaze at you.

Dayum. The three minute heat is back. Hahahahaha oik!

Never judge a book by it's cover.

Hahaha

:p

Silence.

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你.

:'(

So sad leh.

And by the way,

Je m'appelle Katrina.

:)

Forget Whhaa?! ;p

"Don't make a girl fall for you if you have no intention to catch her."

I think I've reposted this quote before this. I was reading this girl's blog and this phrase catches my attention and makes me smile every single time I read it. It's so beautifully put into words. It just describes all the hatred and the sarcasm anger you have for a guy. If you're a girl. :) 

Last Friday I went to Timbre, Clarke Quay to catch the GoodFellas perform. So what can I say? They're good. The lead, Gaz was having flu and Steph insisted it was his flu that made him sound good. Mean, but I kinda agree in someway because I like guys' voices that sound like they're having flu, so it makes sense. Hahaha. You know what's the best part of the whole night? I got swept by the beautiful scenery and the wind. The same places I walked when I fell in and out of the 'shit' and the whole dejavu thing hit me like a rockafella. I felt like I was choking with the past. So dramatic right? But every single thing, every single past burden was lifted when they performed the Cee Lo Green's Porkiu. IT WAS AWESOME! IT WAS THE EXACT SONG THAT GOT ME THROUGH THE SHIT DAYS! I was so excited and I terus felt good and got back on my happy feet! Hahahaha!

I think it's time for me to put the past behind. After all, I'm having the advantage of doing so now. ;)

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Theres always something in the way.
Theres always something gettting through.
Its not me, its You. Its You.

Sometimes ignorance reads true.
hope is not in what i know.
its not in me, its in You.
Its in You.

Its all i know.
Its all i know.
Its all i know.

i find peace when im confused.
i find hope when im let down.
not in me, in You.
its in You.

Hope to lose myself for good.
i hope to find it in the end.
not in me, in You.
In You.

Its all i know. Its all i know. Its all i know.
In You. in You. Its in You. In You.

Theres always something in the way.
Theres always something getting through.
Its not me. Its You.

Its You.

Aliens.

I'm back in another person's home. I miss my mum so much that I wore her pajamas. ;( I'm unofficially a year older now but I'm getting more and more like a crybaby. Hahahahehehehohohohihihihuahuahaaaa -________-

Sweet Home.

Met up with Ee Ling, Yee Nee, Michelle and Lee Ee. Yee Nee had a bad day so she decided not to follow us to the fun fair. 

Huan Chee (Ticket Seller): Now there's alot of people. Just buy the kids tickets and sneak in.

Ee Ling: Empat orang.

Uncle: Amoi, ni untuk kanak-kanak.

Ee Ling: Yala. Untuk kanak-kanak.

Uncle: Ni tiket kanak-kanak!

Ee Ling: YALA! Umur sebelas, kanak-kanak lah!

Uncle: *points at Lee Ee and me* tu dua umur sebelas okay lah. Koh bukan kanak-kanak.

Ee Ling: Ape? Memang kanak-kanak!

Uncle: Pergi tukar tiket!

HAHAHAHAHAHA Budak Sial. Nineteen years old already don't want to admit. Claim that we're all eleven! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Still want to argue with the uncle and be pissed at him for not letting us in. Hahahaha ended up we paid the balance and went it LEGALLY as ADULTS. We then went to Ho Chak and were discussing about this. Michelle suddenly asked a very celaka question: Since Lee Ee and Kat looks like eleven, next time when we go Genting can we buy the family package? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Mannn, I love my friends! Hahahahahahahaha siaaaal.