Trust

I just finished the movie. I wanted to stop when the guy appeared. It was sick and disturbing. But the ending, for the first time in so many movies I've watched, I cried hahaha. It reminded me of the January incident. What the dad told his daughter, it struck me. The whole movie. Eventhough the main plot wasn't about suicide. It was just the ending part where she decided to end her life.

No one in my family talks about it and I myself am avoiding it that I soon forgot about it. Until that day i was packing my room and decided to read my old journal and the day my sis sent me a message.

Now I know it's been extremely hard on them. My parents. My sister. My brother, sis in law, cousins and uncle I guess? I know it's anal to say this but I could just think of my parents and sister. Well, sister mainly hahaha.

I mean, God. What were they actually thinking when it happened? It never struck me until Clive Owen talked to his daughter. It feels extremely horrible. The worry I put in them. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling now.

I just wanna apologise.