But you only want the ones that you can't get

TADAAA!

Officially a BQD Yellow Belt holder!

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My whole body is starting to sore today. I realised one thing today, every single time when it comes to farewells, I'd be the first to walk out as if I do not care at all. -____________- Since last time, after meeting my family, favourite relatives or friends, when it comes to goodbyes, I'd walk straight towards the 'exit', I just don't know why! Hahaha, I shouldn't be laughing, it's not good. -__________- Okay, fine, the point of me saying all these is because. I. Already. Am. Missing. The. Camp. HAHAHAfml. 

All the time, I'd tell my friends, "Forgive. It's easier for you to move on from there." But I recently realised, I'm a person filled with hatred. How ironic. When I hate a particular person, anything that has to do with him/her, I'd try my best to avoid them. Music, places, food, accessories, drinks, ANYTHING, that reminds me of them, I'd hate them as well. :/ I need to change this. And it's wtf that I just realised this recently. I've always thought I forgave, but then I realise I start hating a lot of things and I start to question myself: "Have I really forgiven these people?" But I guess, now that I've realised it, it's never too late to try to change. But you know, sometimes I do think back, why am I still so furious. The one and only reason that I could give myself was, I really can't believe that he/she would do that to me. Seriously. Until today, at this very point of time, whenever I think back of what he/she had done to me, I'd go: WTF. F YOU KATRINA. YOU'RE SUCH A F-ING DUMBASS! WHY DIDN'T YOU F-ING SEE IT COMING?! See what I mean? Just trying to type out how I feel, already bugs me. I really never cursed this much in real life. Sometimes I'm just too caught up with the anger I have, that I 'believe' these words will stab them, every single time I say them out. So can you imagine, how much anger and hatred I have to the extend where I want to see these people get hurt physically? Shit shit shit. I really need to stop thinking like this. I'm hurting myself instead of them, andddd, what's the point. -__________- This will be the biggest challenge from today on: Forgive all the bitches and douchebags and FORGET IT! Promise, that's the last. -___________-

I came across a post and it says: A true friend is one who will listen to your miserably annoying pointless rantings over and over again without getting bored and annoyed at you. Sigh, I'm sorry to most of those out there, I can never be a true friend. HAHAHA. Recently, there's someone who's already getting on my nerves. I mean, why the hell are you creating stories that are not even true just to create curiosity among everyone? I just wanna grab these people and make sure they get muscle spasms for the rest of their lives! -__________- I understand humans will seek for attention somehow, I admit sometimes I do too, but not to this extend! -.-

Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezuz. And I don't know why I'm so grumpy and moody today. *Gives self muscle spasm!* IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME TODAY!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.